Essentially me?

You know that part, in Doctor Who, when Rory's dad is keeping that log about the cubes? And since the cubes never do anything, it's basically the same log every day?

"Brian's log. Day sixty-seven. Cube was quiet all night. Once again. Cube was quiet all day. As per previously. No movement. No change in measurements. End of entry."

That's how I feel like my posts are getting. 

And then you guys are probably like Rory: "Wow. I can't wait to see what happens on day sixty-eight."

But hey, I'm half-done with the challenge! To quote Tim Hawkins, "I'm halfway done, dude!"

Anyhoo.

Day fifteen: A song that describes you.

I mulled a bit over this one, because I honestly couldn't think of a single song that fit me. 

And then I remembered this one Taylor Swift song. 

And I was like BOOM! That one!

Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger

And it's so quiet in the world tonight

Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming,

So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have, honey

If you could stay like that

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little.

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart

And no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up.

There's something about this song that just makes me cry. I can totally relate to it. 

It's not that I don't want to grow up, per say. (I mean, I don't really.) But it's more like I wish I had appreciated being a kid more. I always wanted to grow up and be a big girl. Seriously! I hated  being a little kid. My mom says I was a teenager by the time I was eight. 

You're in the car on the way to the movies

And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off.

At fourteen, there's just so much you can't do

And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block

Remember that she's getting older too

And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school

That verse was me. That whole, "there's just so much you can't do." 

That was me. 

I wanted to be treated as an adult way before I actually was one. I didn't want to be one of the little girls. I think I missed out on a lot of experiences because I was too worried that I'd look like I was still a very small person. I was waaaaay more outgoing when I was little. (Now, I'm quite possibly the most introverted person in the family...) But then, nothing bothered me, really. I couldn't wait to get a job and have a life. 

And then... ... ... Real life started. 

Suddenly, I'm not footloose and fancy free. Suddenly I am  an adult and adult things that I need to do come crashing in, and I'm not ready.

I hate change. 

And the last part of the song is me  at the moment. 

 

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room

Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home

Remember the footsteps, 

remember the words said 

And all your little brother's favorite songs

I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment

In a big city, 

 they just dropped me off.

It's so much colder than I thought it would be

So I tuck myself in......

and turn my night light on

Wish I'd never grown up

I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

I could still be little

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up

It could still be simple.

And yeah. There you go. That's why I love that song. It's me. 

Silly me. *Sheepish grin*

I think I'm just going to post this without re-reading it, so I don't get too embarrassed and decide not to. 

God bless, guys. 

Treskie