Showing posts with label think of me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label think of me. Show all posts

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Picture Sunday-- Apparently, I cannot even.

Wherein Treskie is absolutely exhausted.

Literally me every night: "I am very tired, Lord. It's after midnight, and I would like to sleep."

Literally me every morning: *Peers at clock* "It is six o'clock and I didn't get to sleep until super late last night. I am very tired, Lord."

Literally me every day: "I am very, tired, Lord."

And that is my story.


Sorry this is late, I got distracted yesterday, so Picture Saturday got delayed. (Amy and I were working on something for the channel....)


I'm also relistening to all my musicals and getting emotional over them, because basically, music makes me feel things.

1.) Did I relisten to Phantom? Why, yes. Yes I did.



2.) I'm singing I Dreamed a Dream for one of my final songs in singing class. (AW YISS, SO FUN.) But the first time I printed the sheet music, the printer spazzed out, so I had these half-printed musical sheets that I felt bad wasting. So I drew this during the ten-minute break at class.

Yeah, her face is a little squashy, shush.



3.) Which led me to go, "Oooooooooooooh." And so I doodled across the un-transposed sheet music for my other solo.




4.) Attempted to draw Hale and failed exceptionally.



5.) I started this one and decided to finish it later, because I was tired, and could not even.



6.) Ehem. I'm feeling the urge to draw Christine a lot these days, because basically, her hair is the best thing since sliced bread, and POTO is the king of all musicals. SO... Here, have an inked in sketch of her going, "TRY TO FORGIVE, TEACH ME TO LIIIIIVE, GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO TRYYY!" Because reasons.



Anyway, yeah. I'm planning on drawing more next time, but I can't promise, since it's going to be a really long week at the flower shop. I'd like to draw some actual pictures of the Phantom, since it's his musical, after all, and I barely pay attention to him. (I'm more like, "RAOUL AND CHRISTINE ARE GOLDEN LITTLE GUMMY BEARS OF CUTENESS" #OTP.)

I'd like to color several of the black and whites that I've posted lately....

And I want to draw Christina Grimmie, because her death hit me really hard and I want to pay tribute to her somehow.

Until then, here, have a video that made me cry like a baby.


Yours, ever so sincerely,




Wednesday, November 4, 2015

In Defense of Raoul || Part one || AVM Blog Party

I'm linking up with The Very Musical Blog Party.

(You can find the rules here.)

And this one is technically Day Three's challenge: Chose a Character to Defend/Discuss.


I'm going to defend Raoul, and discuss the Phantom, because I break rules.

And here I go!



People are always saying that Raoul was boring and wimpy and controlling. They say that the            
Phantom was just misunderstood and sad, and Christine should have chosen him over Raoul.            


WRONG! Raoul was cool!



Let's take a look at it, shall we?

Phantom VS. Raoul*

*Using the musical as reference, and not the movie. And excluding Love Never Dies, because Love Never Dies is not canon, and it sucked. (Also, I don't refer to the Phantom as Erik, because in the musical, we never find out his name, mkay?)

The Phantom and Raoul are polar opposites.

The Phantom was controlling, manipulative, and guys... he murdered people. Lots of people! #warningsign

Raoul, by contrast, was steady and encouraging, and just all 'round, nicer.


Christine is in her early twenties in the musical. Raoul can't be that much older than her, because they were best friends as kids. The Phantom is like thirty-five.Warning bells right there, ladies and gentlemen..

Okay, so Christine's dad told her that when died, he would send the Angel of Music to her.  He passed away when Christine was about ten years old, and Madame Giry took her in at the Opera House. This is when the Phantom first encountered her, and became obsessed with her voice.



By creepily lurking in her walls, he found out about about this "angel of music", and thought "Aha! Idea!" and decided to become Christine's angel. Talk about about sneaking up on someone when they're vulnerable! She was so young, and she'd just lost her father, and he used her emotional state to his advantage. (I don't think he meant to, it just happened. BUT STILL.)

Sure, he taught her to sing, but he did it from the inside of a wall, and she never even saw him until after she sang Think of Me, and he takes her  to his underground lair. (By the way, the entrance to his underground lair is behind the mirror in her dressing room. Uh oh! Stranger danger, stranger danger!)



It never really says in the musical how long the Phantom and Christine knew each other, I'm guessing it was a while, since he got her to trust him. He hid in the opera house, he was the Opera Ghost. He spied on her, he basically brainwashed her into believing that he was the angel of music that her father had promised to send her when he got to heaven. That sounds like the healthy foundation on which good relationships are formed! Not.

There you go. That is the Phantom and Christine's backstory.


Raoul and Christine were childhood friends, they met before her father died, and from the lyrics of Little Lotte, they were really close. He obviously knew her well enough, that he was able to use the nickname Little Lotte.  He apparently liked her way back then too, because he ran into the cold, cold water to rescue the scarf that her dad got her. (Rawr, Mr. Vicomte sir, such bravery.)


Adorable!



When they were reunited after Christine's fist solo performance, it's plain to see that the spark that was between them when they were kids was still there. They reminisce about having picnics in the attic, and telling each other stories, and he makes her happy.

Then Raoul wants to take her for dinner, and the only reason Christine says no is because she is afraid that the "Angel of Music" would get angry.

And that is their backstory. It seems a lot healthier, doesn't it? Doesn't it!? (Everybody say it with me now: YEAAAAH.)


Right, so let's compare and contrast the Phantom and Raoul. (Mwuahaha, I love doing that.)


The Phantom is creepy! Besides the fact that he totally stalks Christine, he's just overall kind of insane. He's sympathetically insane but he's still soooooo bonkers. I mean like worthy-to-be-locked-up-in-an-asylum-for-years bonkers.

I'm sure he did love Christine. I won't argue that. But the kind of love he had for her seemed to be more the kind you'd have for property. He acted like he owned her, and he wanted her to serve him. (Probably because he never learned or understood what love was... which is really depressing, when you think about it....) But still, the way he talks to Christine is alarming.


You have come here, for one purpose, and one alone:
Since the moment I first heard you sing, 
I have needed you with me. 
To serve me, 
to sing, for my music.... 
                        (Music of the Night)



He scared her. The first clue to this was when Raoul wants to take her out for dinner.

Raoul: And now, we go to supper.
Christine: No, Raoul, the Angel of Music is very strict.
Raoul:  Well I shan't keep you up late! You must change, 
and I must get my hat. Two minutes-- Little Lotte.
And after he leaves to get his hat, she says to herself: Things have changed, Raoul.

It's not that she didn't want to go to dinner with him, it's that she was afraid to make this so called "Angel of Music" have a spazz attack.



It's only after the Phantom feels threatened by Raoul that he shows himself to Christine. He pretty much pulls her down into his lair, and you can tell that she's a bit nervous to go down alone with him. She's kind of pulling back the whole journey, but he's like "No no no, come! I have candy! And music!"

Sing once again with me, our strange duet.
My power over you, grows stronger yet. 
And though you turn from me to glance behind. 
The Phantom of the Opera is there, inside your mind.
                                           (Title Song.)
 
Mmm. "my power over you grows stronger yet," and "the Phantom of the Opera is there inside your mind," seem like maybe she's not going into his lair with her full faculties about her. Hypnotism!



And then he's like "Oh rad, I have the best idea. I'll show her the life sized doll I made to look just like her. She'll love that. And oh yeah, I'll put the doll in a wedding dress, that will really make Christine's night."

He had the doll in a wedding dress. Guys. GUYS. Weird, guys!



Okay so then after she faints, she wakes up, still in his lair, and she's confused and hazy on the details of how she got down there, because whenever she and the Phantom are alone, he kind of puts her in a trance. All she remembers is that there was a boat, and a man, and the man was wearing a mask.


She sees the Phantom across the room, and in a moment of curiosity, takes off his mask.

*cue thunder and screaming and earthquakes* (not really, but close)

He flips out on her, and curses her to hell, because she saw his face and that's not okay with him.

You little prying pandora!
You little demon! Is this what you wanted to see?
Curse you! You little lying Delilah! You little viper!
Now you cannot ever be free!
                                                       (I Remember There Was Mist/Stranger Than You Dreamt it)

Then he gets really quiet and starts singing to her about what it's like to be him.

Fear can turn to love, you'll learn to see, 
to find the man behind the monster.

It is so sad how messed up he is.  


The Phantom calms down when she hands him back his mask and returns Christine to the theater.... like he switches from Evil!Phantom to Calm!Phantom, like some sort of undrugged Jekyll and Hyde.


Meanwhile, Raoul can't find Christine, and he's worried that something happened to her, because she ditched him and clean forgot about their dinner date, and he heard a man's voice in her dressing room. On top of that he gets this weird note from someone he doesn't know.

Do not fear for Miss Daae, 
the Angel of Music has her under his wing.
Make no attempt to see her again. 
                                                                                               (Notes)

Needless to say he's not happy about that. And then Madame Giry brings another message from Opera Ghost, which is addressed to pretty much everyone in charge.

Christine Daae has returned to you, and I am anxious her career should progress. 
In the new production of "Il Muto," you will therefore cast Carlotta as the pageboy. 
And put Miss Daae in the role of Countess.
                                                                                                      (Notes.)

Raoul think this note is arrogant and frightening since this so-called Opera Ghost is ordering Christine to sing the lead, and he's threatening disastrous consequences if she doesn't.

Raoul was new at the Opera House, so I don't think he realized how serious the Phantom was, he just thought he was a crazy person, who had a fixation on Christine. So to keep Christine out of harm's way, and to stand up to  this Opera Ghost, he decides to keep Christine in the chorus.

Christine spoke of an Angel.
Is this her Angel of Music? Angel or madman?
Orders, warnings, lunatic demands!
Surely, for her sake, I must see these demands are rejected.
                                                       (Prima Donna)
 

Everything Raoul does is to protect Christine.



The managers of the Opera Populaire decide to leave Carlotta as the lead, making the Phantom do nasty things: Carlotta's voice going all wonky, and Buquet getting hung. (The Phantom literally killed Buquet because he had been talking about his face. He's like, "No, my face, you can't talk about it. Keep it secret... keep it safe.)

After Buquet's body falls onto the stage, the first thing Raoul does is find Christine to get her safe.

Raoul: Christine, come with me--
Christine: No, to the roof! We'll be safe there.
                                                                (Poor Fool, He Makes Me Laugh)

Christine's terrified, and takes Raoul to the roof because that's as far away from the basement-- AKA the Phantom's lair-- as she can get.

And right there on the roof Christine has a meltdown.

"Don't take me back there, he'll kill me!
His eyes will find me there, those eyes that burn...
And if he has to kill a thousand men,
The Phantom of the Opera will kill and kill again!
Who is this man? Who hunts to kill?
I can't escape from him, I never will...
                                (Why Have You Brought Me Here)


Honestly, he probably thought she was a little crazy, I mean, she's going off about the Phantom of the Opera being inside her mind....

And in this labyrinth, where night is blind, 
the Phantom of the Opera is there, inside my mind!
                                              (Why Have You Brought Me Here.)

Raoul calms her down, he's very gentle, he's very kind.


And then he hears the Phantom whisper Christine's name too, and I think that's when he realizes that the Phantom of Opera is real. I don't think he believed that he was a ghost, but he realized that the someone terrorizing the opera house was very real.

But at that moment, he doesn't really care, because Christine is crying, and he wants to make her feel safe.

Every single thing that Raoul says is the opposite of what the phantom says. Okay, so for example, "Music of the Night" is the Phantom's love song, and "All I Ask of You" is Raoul's, right? So think about the difference in what they say to Christine. (I won't do the whole songs, just bits and pieces.)

Music of the Night                                                                    All I Ask of You

Nighttime sharpens, heightens each sensation                                       No more talk of darkness
Darkness stirs, and wakes imagination                                               Forget these wide eyed fears

Turn your face away from the garish light of day                                    Let me be your shelter,  
Turn your thoughts away from cold,                                                                 Let me be you light
     unfeeling light.                                                                                  You're safe, no one will find you

Let your soul take you where you want to be                                         Let me be your freedom
Only then, can you belong to me.                                                        Let daylight dry your tears
                                                                                                          I'm here, with you, beside you
                                                                                                          To guard you, and to guide you.

It doesn't seem weird to anyone else that the Phantom always says things like, 'You belong to me," and "serve me"?

Whenever Christine talks about the Phantom, there's always a part of the song where she says that he scares her, or she's afraid.

Every. Time.

When Christine accepts Raoul's proposal, she's not holding back, she's not even a little bit afraid, she's excited and happy, and you can tell how much she wants to get away from the darkness that is in the Phantom.

All I want is freedom, 
a world with no more night.
And you, always beside me
to hold me, and to hide me.
                         (All I Ask of You.)  

 

Guess who was creepin' on them the whole time they were having a moment? *cue thunder and screaming and earthquakes* Oh yeah, it was the Phantom. I'm not going to say it wasn't sad that he found out that way that she didn't love him. I mean, the way he says I gave you my music, is like he gave her everything and she betrayed him.


She's the one person he opened up to and she basically went "NOPE!" That is so sad. And that, ladies and gentlemen is what makes him human, and relatable, but it's also the turning point for him. I'm pretty sure that denial and betrayal was what sent him into a tail spin.

I gave you my music, made your song take wing....
And now, how you've repaid me: denied me and betrayed me!
He was bound to love you, when he heard you sing...
Christine.... Christine.... 
                        (All I Ask of You Reprise)

That's sad. I mean, that is really sad. But then again, the Phantom doesn't love Christine so much as he loves her voice. "He was bound to love you when he heard you sing." Yeah, her voice is lovely, but Raoul loves her for more than that, whereas the Phantom loves her voice and her music. Christine is more than just vocal chords, mkay?
Our poor abandoned Phantom promptly throws caution to the wind, and goes on a full-on Rage Rampage. 

You will curse the day you did not do
ALL THAT THE PHANTOM ASKED OF YOU!
                                            (All I Ask of You Reprise)
 
He literally throws a tantrum and destroys the giant chandelier that lights up the stage of the opera house. He's a freaking child!



*Thunder and screaming and earthquakes*


INTERMISSION!
*Phantom overture plays*


And that's where I'm going to break, because it seems like a good place to break.
I'll post the second part tonight or tomorrow.

What did you think so far?
Am I winning you over?

Cheers!




Saturday, September 12, 2015

Picture Saturday-- Phantom Paper Dolls

I don't even know what happened, but all of the sudden it's been two weeks since my last blog post and that's not good. Oops.



First of all! Before I say anything else, my Raoul post is almost done! This being said, it's kind of morphed into more than just a defense post, and it's turned into more of a "my thoughts on Phantom" post.

This means the cruddy thing is really long.

SO I HAVE A QUESTION FOR YOU ALL.

Would you rather I did the post in two parts? (They'd still be pretty good sized posts.)
Or would you prefer I did it in one fell swoop? (The post's a novel, basically.)

Let me know, so I can format and stuff, my dears. :)



For everyone who wondered how the Giants game went.... we got creamed. *cough*

I worked a lot this week, which is nice, because I can always use a little extra money, ya feel me?

Somehow, I managed to do something to my thumb and my pointer finger on my right hand, and now typing is tricky, because they hurt.

Also, 24.

Jack should just be president, that's all I'm saying.


Bella's doing a petition to get Tale of Two Cities back on Broadway, and she would really love it if you guys could sign it for her. It's here.


Anyway, this Picture Saturday's going to be a little different, because I'm posting paper dolls rather than drawings.


I had a good time making these, even though they were movie costumes, rather than Broadway ones. I get that movies and stage performances are supposed to be different, but I kind of wish they'd kept the costumes a little closer to the stage version... that's just my preference.

Anyway! Here we go!

1.) The dolls themselves, because LOOK AT HOW AWESOME HIS FACE TURNED OUT! (And Christine looks sweet, which made me really happy.)



2.) Some of the pictures I took with them wearing their outfits didn't turn out so well, my phone's camera has issues sometimes, but here, have Christine and her Think of Me gown.




3.) The dressing gown from Angel of Music, because seriously, that's one of the most important outfits of the show.





4.) So his masks made me really happy....




5.) Christine's Wishing dress, because prettiful...




6.) The Masquerade gown, which is glorious... (And surprisingly tricky to draw, omgoodness.)




7.) The Phantom's masquerade costume. (Did you know it's called Red Death? CAUSE I ONLY JUST FOUND OUT.) Also, not gonna lie, this is my favorite of all of them.




8.) And finally, Christine's bridal veil and gown from the Final Lair, and this is possibly my favorite of hers. Her dress turned out better than I expected, those pleats gave me some trouble.





Ta-daaaa!

Ehem, I finally sat down and watched the whole Phantom movie with Sammi, because she loves the movie and she wanted me to watched it without bias... I liked it a lot more than I thought I would.

It's a lot better when you watch it all the way through and not just the clips you can find on youtube. I will say I actually like the way Gerard portrays the Phantom better than Ramin whatshisface, because he acts more like Michael Crawford, who will always be the epitome of Phantom to me.

Also, I think the hate movie Raoul gets is wrong. The guy is a good actor, and he sings really well, and he wasn't a wimp, which is what I hear people say about him a lot. I mean yeah, his hair is long and... yeah, his hair's too long. But it's accurate to the time and he was really cool, so I think he made up for it.

Basically the main problem I have with the movie is that they made it quite a bit dirtier than the musical, the Music of the Night, and Point of No Return made me really uncomfortable.

Anyway, there you have it!

What do you think of the dolls?
Which one is your favorite Christine outfit?
Which is your favorite Phantom outfit?
Did I capture the feel of the costumes?
Let me know about the Raoul post, pretty please...

Let me know!

Love ya guys, and I shall be back soon!




Saturday, May 30, 2015

Picture Saturday- I can't stop drawing Phantom

The problem is, I keep refueling the obsession.

I think it was actually starting to wear off, and then we decided to watch it again. (Not the 25th, no, we have another version, where we know the guy who played the phantom and it's very sad.)

Anyway, so we watched it, and I'm back to the lalalalala-POTO-is-life, and it's actually getting a bit worrisome.

Not really, I mean, I spammed with Brothers In Arms fanart last year, and that ended eventually. (Cait, I will get you your SPN Fanart soon, I swear!)

I couldn't really draw this week because I had a sense of impending doom hanging over my head, and I can't draw when I'm stressed out. (The sense of doom was caused by a jury summons, which I did not end up having to attend, Deo Gratias.) So instead of being productive, I binge watched some TV shows and decided to partake of the Supernatural Rewatch.



Anyway, I think I shall do a life-updatey post next week. (Because my life is just so freaking exciting!)*

*I'm joking. My life is beyond boring, and I like it that way. 


Right so!

1.) Candence asked me to draw her blog's sidebar image, so... She gave me some ideas for what she wanted, and I basically went nuts.



2.) So many ideas came pouring in...




3.) Mmmmm yass.



4.) This one did not turn out so well but whatever...


Using just a tiny bit of color may very well be my new favorite thing, you never know. What with not having jury duty, my mind is full of drawings now.

5.) If you guys get tired of Phantom Fanart let me know, and I'll post it to tumblr instead. Or I'll break it up. Or something. But let me know!

Here is the colored version of the Think of Me I did last time. I like it better colored, it makes me really happy. 


6.) And here we have two of the same picture. One before I colored it, and one after. I like both, and I like the way the pencil sketch looks refined and rough at the same time. YEAH!




7.) The girl I started and didn't finish because it was like 10pm and I wanted bed.



8.) Another before and after look at a phantom art.... I was experimenting with expressions....


Angry Raoul Teeth...


9.) Annnnd finally, we have the completed one from last time. I really like adding red to the phantom pictures. Don't ask, I couldn't say why. BUT LOOK AT THEIR EXPRESSIONS! They have nice faces, and I liked the whole look of Christine and Raoul, and the Phantom's face makes me really happy, because he's disfigured and it's awesome.


Okay! So! Question time:

Favorite drawing? (pick one. Or two. But no more than that lol.)
Tired of Phantom?
Do you like the minimal color ones? 
Do you need a blog header drawn? 

Mkay, now I go.

Treskie out.